2012

Now is almost 1am of 1st of Jan 2012, welcome to the so-called Doom's Year... =D 2011 is such a year tat filled wit lotsa lotsa experience, appreciate wat I've learn but plz no more, I'd had more den I can handle last year, the only thing I wished for 2012 is everything will go smooth... =) I'm gonna involve myself in more stuffs, more challenge to come. I wan a brand new me tis year, n tatz y I started to chg my style, attitude and ways of life.

2012 MAN 爆出击！！！ HAHAHAHAHAHA

Dear 2012,
Plz be nice n mke me feels tat my wish is being granted when I read tis post nxt year on 2013, unlike the 2011 one... THANK YOU & GODBLESS

Regards,
Me

Found the Force

It has been a while since the last time I doubting the chosen course, most probably I ad adapt to the hardiness and the environment, starting to do juz wat every1 been doing, nvr tot of being outstanding or watever. I used to hav a dream, a force at the very beginning which drove me towards tis path, I wan to find a remedy for cancer I said, it took away my precious family members, it took away loves from many families, I hate it I said, But seems like tat dream is no longer achievable for me, U might say it will nvr be too late, but den wat if the precious chances is being wasted? So I've abandoned tat dream for quite some times, making me undergoing some lifeless n aimless stuffs during my studies, but after tdy, I found something I still can do wit wat I currently hav, a smaller n achievable aim I would say. Tis is actually alwayz in my mind, I will try my best to do it in my daily life, save the earth, save the resources, so tat my child or grand child and the following generation would still hav the chance to see wat I've seen. As a chemical engineer, it's part of our responsibility to design and create a green environment, I believe it's a very heaty issue among the engineers nowadays. Tatz the oni way for us to chg the place we living now, the oni livable planet in the milky way before the nxt being found I would say. The Earth ad start to warn n alerting the human being, natural disaster are happening in higher frequency nowadays, different places on earth. And tis is the driving force for me now, I wanna do smtg to help the earth, by doing green tech.

BORING~!

Arghhhhhhh I'm so boringgggg~ I even got bored until I dig out the long lost PS1 and those games tat fully covered wit dust, the machine still functioning n look well =D Thx the owner, for taking good care of it since long long time ago... Playing bak those RPG game, MY FAV!!! Starting all frm beginning, n start to realise tat how much time i spend facing tis machine n games, I can rmb most of the story line... @_@

Was waiting for frenz to finish their finals, I need Fresh Air~

Almost the end of 2011, was in a very peaceful mind now, hav the feeling going bak to the old track, being the nerd me, strong one though, but feel likes it will nvr success, I ad exposed myself to the world full of seductive stuffs, My entertainment is no longer Video Games...

U came bak frm SG, fetched u frm airport, spent some times 2gether after tat, but dunno since when, I no longer treat u as smtg I wanted desperately, mayb since u went SG, everything is over for me, Missing? Of coz I did, But u can no longer affect my mood I would say. The hangout yesterday nite really mke me realised lotsa stuffs, U r more Real when u r wit me alone, sharing secrets wit me, hence I didnt really pay attention on wat u guyz been talking yesterday, cuz I noe I definitely noe more den tat. It is true when ppl said U will only start to appreciate when thing gone, I felt it yesterday, u r abit.... Different. I nvr mke flirty jokes like I usually did, I nvr hold u to cross the road, I dun feel like doing anything, n I noe tat u feel more comfortable in tat way, so do me... Tis is better isnt it? =)

December

Well... The last month of 2011, doom day are getting closer huh? L o L... Glad tat it's December now, the end of the disastrous year. Everything is over now... =) Saw this phrase for dunno how many times every where, It's Christmas Month, All I Want For Christmas Is (Fill In Da Blank). Den I start to ask myself, wat I wan for Christmas? Nvr celebrate Christmas before, juz some minor yum cha session wit fren + countdown, n actually I do not want you so much ever since u left, wat left is mayb juz missing u since u r abroad, hence no worry, u will not be wat I'm wishing for tis christmas... I've got wat I wan now, satisfied wit wat I hav now, Belongings, Frenz, Family... It has been a tough year for me, relationship, academic n stuffs, it's empty nw, the heart is empty by now... SO, All I wan for Christmas is... Meeting another 1 tat can fill up the another half of the apple.

See U soon, The One.

Unleashed

Had abandoned the blog for quite some time, no reason, juz dun feel like sharing anything. Thoughts and feeling are piling up in the brain, juz dun feel like sharing. Was being judge non-stop based on recent action or wat so ever, even I myself noe that I'm no longer the same like last time. U might asked me, dun u feel wrong doing tat? Y u do tis y u do tat? Of coz I noe it's smtg not good, but I dunno y, I dun hav the intention to stop myself for doing so. The Devil's was Unleashed, no way keeping it back.

Dun tell me how much U love Me, u noe that I wont believe anymore... I've seen it, when things are around u, there are no appreciation. U alwayz tell me, it's too faz, i nvr let u hav enuf time to think. But recall it, it's not a short period, 3 months is not a short period. I noe u might be shocked, really got 3 months? Yes it is, I've been there beside u asking u to choose for 3 long months. I've been doing things for you, things tat u wanted for so long. I will not leave, but I can nvr go bak. I'm Sorry.

受不了

无论前一晚玩得多么起劲，多么刺激，多么甜蜜，睡醒后却像做了场梦一般的虚假，梦醒后的空虚，真的让人无发接受，有时连对方的脸都已无法想起。真的很怕那种空虚，那种梦醒时分，努力地想起前一晚的点点，仿佛在寻找些什么，得到的却只有那零零碎碎的片段，回想只会让心疼痛不已的片段。

Be Last

"世间上所有的事，都要我们去做选择，正如一份感情，注定要消失的时候，你唯一可以做到的就是忘记她，或者............令她忘记你。"

如果你还看到哩個更新，你会知，其實個晚你估啱左，你估中我做乜，但是你估唔中個原因。原本要講嘅一切，却在听到你声音的個一杀那講唔出，汹涌而出的回忆打消了這個念头。我冇諗过原来爱上一個唔应该爱上個人是咁辛苦，原本諗住大家都开心冇乜所谓，但原来係我玩唔起，爱上你但因种种原因不能一起，放不下真係好痛。我真係好辛苦，好痛，更辛苦嘅係，我不可以同任何人講我有幾辛苦。看到你的他，我知我地唔应该再乱缠，所以做左决定，让一切随风。