Please Cure Me

I used to think tat Im a gifted child, a child tat hav so much attentions frm people up there and they gifted lotsa lotsa hidden talents i would say, well tis might sound abit out the mind but i do hav vry strong 6th sense when I was younger n those events do amazed me, but it nvr appears  again now... Hahaha... Well bak to the story, I alwayz feel tat Im so gifted tat i wouldn't die, I did lotsa crazy stuffs which whenever I tot bak of it, it actually causes goosebumps, Im actually tat close to death, Im juz like others kids, not afraid of anything, and I behaved like a monkey when i was younger, tat causes headache for my parents, hahahaha... And those moment doesnt last long, at the age of 9, this kid had measles, and tat causes some infection to his bladder due to serious dehydration and the inflammatory affects the boy's nervous system, and he losses his ability to walk for several months, after regaining the ability to walk, he started to notice some changes, he couldn't walk like normal ppl again, his nerves, the irritation raises even by moving his limbs, is so annoying, frm a semi-hyper active kid, he bcome so inactive in any things, all he wanted is to sit down coz every movement of the legs irritates his nerve... After some years, he began to adapt to the irritation n started his life as a normal human being again, but... Those fucking stuffs strikes him again, he'd gt slipped disc 2 years bak n tat the kick in the balls for him, for so many years, he nvr felt those type of pain, those pain like screw driving ur spine, limitation of movement... He nvr felt tat vulnerable before, if anything happened around him, he wouldn't hav the ability to save all his love one bcoz he couldn't even protect himself, all he wanted now is juz living painlessly like a normal person...

普通人是不可能了解当跑步，走路，运动都变成了很奢侈的东西时，是什么感觉。。。

平行時空？

我聽講過，若果係有緣，點都會相遇，無論點，發生咩事都一樣。。最近我都係度諗，若果當年我選擇去 nottingham 修學，我地就唔係今時今日咁，我人生最唔開心嘅時候可能係我人生最開心嘅時候，我會係英國，同我最好嘅朋友一齊過個一年。。。唔同嘅時空，唔同決定，造就唔同嘅結局。。。

Things Tat U Do Not Know

Upon request, most of the latest posts will be written in english until someone passes the exam... ;)

It must always be ur wonder how to mke me for in luv wit u, y tat no matter how sweet u r, u r juz nobody... Im a scorpio, typically typical scorpio which can nvr fall in luv easily, but once we did, it will be ur memories tat hardest to be forgotten. U must had wondered, y u could nvr replace her, well... To be frank, there r no one tat r irreplaceable, once tat person's story ended, when i decided to forget, tat person will jz be a dust in my life, they no longer hold the power to affect anything, and in fact, I doesnt get a replacement for anyone, if u secure a place in there, ur place will be urs and only urs, they r unique i can assure...

The reason y u couldnt find a place in there is bcoz of u couldnt even fulfil the fundamental part... The first and most important stuffs tat i find in a person i need, is the sense of securities, then u will says, she too couldnt giv me that... Yea, her attitude once annoyed me but this is the part, where Im too young to believe eveything ppl told me, and she literally told me how important am i to her, how i bcome everything of her and bla bla bla, tat is the part tat mke me actually start believing and feeling secure... But, a big but, things r no longer the same now u see, ppl lost their trust towards smtg as time passes by, so tis is wat I'd been stolen by the snatch theft named Chrono... My trust, towards ppl's words... I no longer believe in promises, no longer believing in sweet words, and no longer believing in watever swearing... They r all bullshit to me, i only believe in action now, prove to me, show me, how true u r, how sincere u r...

I dun need someone tat will cause me fucking problems and jealousies when im attached to, and u r fucking sweet talking to who so ever appeared, Im nt being selfish but who the fuck fucking like their partner to be so fucking sociable and overly frenly to fucking everyone? So watz tat for for owning u? I can juz be like anyone to be fucking touch hug grab u? Im not fucking narrow minded nor over protective u see, i doesnt even need to worried if u do noe how to protect urself but unfortunately things r the other way round here... But well, im a pretty fair guyz u see, erm... Physically n mentally fair den, so if u fucking like to be fucking close wit oppose gender ppl, den dun fucking care, jealous or wat so ever argue wit me when i got too close wit others galz kay? Im can be fucking frenly and sociable too damn it... Dun fucking think tat Im a small potato arse...

Ahhh~ wat a relief... So the nxt time u feel like askin me y i do nt love u, read it over urself... kthxbai

I learnt it in a hard way

以前，总觉得说什么因了解而分开，简直是一对狗屁，都是些不负责任的人说的，然而现在。。。我相信了，我和你，都是因走过了无数的光阴，慢慢地，了解了其实我们并不适合，以前的种种纠缠，都只是任性，不肯认输。。。说真的，和你在一起的日子，真的领悟了很多，也把以前总不能接受的事情一一的给接受了。。。变得。。。更现实了。。。

以前当我告诉人，我对她多么重要，她多么需要我，她有几爱我，多不可能离开我，就会有一个朋友来告诉我，“干嘛把事情说得那么落实？时间那么长，她现在爱你不代表永远爱你，不要酱傻”。。。当时听在心里，就是一堆废话，心想 “切！ 你懂啥？！” 现在。。。终于了解啦。。。哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

你问我，

现在听到她的事，情绪波动没？波。。。只是不现

现在想她没？ 想。。。只是不露

现在还爱没？爱。。。只是不说

那。。。心情如何？很好。。。因为没有不好的原因。。。=）

The Chill

Do u rmb when is the last time u laugh out so hard that u forgot everything? I forgot when but tonite, I did it again, laugh out loud from the heart itself, the night when oni bros r chilling, and I could tell them anything, we shared, we laughed, being nostalgic and talk like there r no tmr and we could skip any single stuffs we been though together. The bros since 2ndary skol, where we been through the most memorable memories for us, the time where we call youth.

I've been through lotsa stuffs as compared to some of them, and looks into the world more thoroughly, and if u asked me now, I would tell u, I regretted, I nvr wan a life like tis, I wan an ordinary life, not an complicated one like wat I'd been through, I wish to be abit more naive, I wish I nvr seen so much, nvr experienced so much, so that I could still hold some hopes.

Well... It's not an emo post btw, juz to say, laugh is alwayz the best cure for problems, but only a sincere laugh could mke it, I'd fake a smile or laugh, alot... Juz to try my best to hide watz deeply inside, the sorrow and the pain, of coz trying my best to cheer myself up, but non works... So when is the last time when u sincere laugh out loud? But no matter wat, alwayz rmb to put a smile on ur face, even u hav to fake it sometimes, coz u look best wit tat... *winkz

今晚我笑得没心没肺。。。=D

Time

Time is the best snatch theft in the world, or mayb... The universe. U will nvr noticed until something belongs to u got snatched...
Wonder why I unintentionally open the facebook chat history starts reading and noticed, I'd gained something, missed something and of coz losses something, watz in my mind when i read through almost all the last chat wit people r "Gosh... I'm so daring to said tat" , "Wow... so tis person actually pm-ed me first" , "Y i didnt replied? So rude of me" , "Wat kind of lame shit r u crapping eric tkk?!" and last but not least "Hmmm... we used to be tis sweet huh? Endless topic and laughter... I couldn't mke u smile n laugh like i used to, same phrase but different responds, guessed u got bored by the same stuffs"...

Well u would nvr noticed how much the world could chged until u take peep into ur past, be amazed dude, be amazed, those happened in juz a blink of eyes u see... Time took away so much from me, so much... And I will got it to pay me bak...

Ever wonder y I love the world Chrono so much? I used the term as nickname in almost anything ever since 13... Coz the thing I afraid the most is time, I realised how minute r us when it comes to time, we r incompatible, at all... I hate to do anything where i need to compete with time, but unfortunately, every living things are competing against time ever since the born... So I chosen it as a name, to hav a silly hope which I can keep time by my side, I do hopes tat I could reverse the time, reverse the mistakes I had done...

And yea... Hahahahaha... The monkies juz got me a new name, since I keep mentioning I could generate electricity juz by a winkz, the monkies r calling me Erictricity now... HAHAHAHAHAHAHA... They made my day by tat, well it sounds cool to me, so I juz accept it...
So beware... I could Erictrocute u... *winkz... Hahahahaha

*Time is ticking, hopes u realised it too*

愤

这几天心情，情绪都一直处在紧绷，愤怒的情况。。。就一个早上，就发了三次的脾气，声量大得惊人。。。也许已经不想压抑了。。。