Dropbox Images

It couldnt be denied that dropbox is an awesome apps, needless to say the auto uploading to cloud function. And due to changing of fon, I still yet to equip my new fon wit the Dropbox app, and few days ago, I tend to remember getting it back so I downloaded it. Once I got it in my few, of cuz it took some times to upload all my existing photo to the cloud, while doing so, I look through the old albums for some auto uploaded photo, n tadaaa~ Memories strike again... I saw photos of us, which I forgot the existence, I saw screenshots I took of sweet msgs which I used to send it to you, and of cuz the reason tat brings up this post... Our arguments, u might not realised we doesnt really argue when we r in the undefined relationship, coz U know I doesnt like to argue, I always choose to keep quite, and let things pass. All the msgs I screenshot, represent the few months where we quarrel the most, on anything and everything, and each and every time, I fight back, I scolded you, you scolded me back, and the main reason of all these, is Him, the Mr J... That moment, is the gloomiest and saddest moment of all, we been into fights, we said we hate each others, we said life could be better if all these end between us, those words, those language... it's so hurtful, till the extent whereby juz merely reading bak those messages, causes a watery eyes of mine, my emotions got tense, and my eyes close unintentionally due to the heart could take those words once more... And yes, it's tat hurts... It hurts so much that it leaves an unforgettable marks even after so so long, I still feel the heartache just by reading back the messages where we quarrel,it hurts so much that I can literally fell the disappointment I felt at tat moment when you said u wanted to forgive... It hurts so much... Too much... And all of the above, just get me another sleepless night and half day of EL coz I couldnt wake up in the morning today... Hahahahaha~ I doesnt feel like writing a post of it at the vry beginning, but just in case u know, one day, when I hav amnesia, and this sites is still on while dropbox is still accessible, I know where to find my memories, some memories which I treasure most...

今天是 792015

我的周末, 变化都特别的大幅度, 有时空闲得不得了, 有时充足的不得了, 但是相同的是, 我都不喜欢浪费这些唯一属于自己的时间, 闲时, 就休息个够, 忙时, 就忙个够。。。所以我每个星期日的晚上呢, 都会习惯性的迟睡, 今晚。。。也不例外。。。

没事干, 开了开电脑, 看了看照片。。。是, 是上一次旅行的照片, 看着看着, 不禁地感叹了, 原来那一次的旅行, 是最后一次, 一这样的形态一起。。。遗憾的是, 有些事情只是回忆, 依然没办法, 一觉地, 拥抱到天亮, 像是注定般的, 错过了一切。。。

嗨。。。近来的你, 好吗? 好久不见了, 不知道是天意, 还是人为, 我们总没机会见面。。。你, 过得还好吗?

我很好, 才发觉, 差一个礼拜, 就五个月了, 惨痛的接受现实, 有五个月了, 但其实时间比我想像中的慢呢。。。

会发觉, 真的不一样了, 少了不踏实的感觉, 少了忧虑, 少了陪伴, 生活突然的, 像少了很多东西。。。从来只相信事在人为的我啊, 竟然去问神了, 他的回答啊, 其实有让我吃惊, 原来啊, 孤僻这事儿, 是与生俱来的。。。哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。放心, 问神, 也只是失了方向, 想找个安心什么的, 我依然是比较相信我的能力, 终究会有成果。。。那感情嘛, 就还好, 因为我觉得我的孤僻, 不适合有 commitment, 所以都没目标的。。。

其实最近啊, 都蛮迷茫的, 就事业啊, 都有点 offtrack 了, 很多事情都已经没办法控制, 也许是项目都变大变多, 没办法控制的事越来越多, 就变得越来越不喜欢上班。。。明年, 也许会考虑找点喜欢的事来做, 趁年轻, 试试看去闯点什么的。。。

你呢? 最近。。。都干点啥了?

下雨天

其实从我看到歌词的那一天起，它就变成了我 playlist 里，一直 repeat 的歌。。。 我问，你说又怎样？ 真的没怎样。。。 就其实想知道，是不是。。。

这是?

最可怜的感情, 是暧昧不清, 有时很实, 有时很虚, 可能双方都只是想为寂寞找个寄托。。。剪不断, 理还乱。。。

为什么我都遇见这样的。。。

I am not Ready

I Knew Im not Ready when I neither felt happy or sweet when she started the Babe, Dear, Bae title thingy but rather annoyed n stress n not feel like replying at all...

Please keep it slow girl, else... I will just leave...

我从不相信感情可以无中生有, 至少对我来说不能。。。

Vanished World

You were rushing your ways to have a glance of my world, u tried so hard and you finally found a way... After u got the whole image of how my world looks like, you turned around and left after finding it wasn't interesting as you thought it would be, and without you noticing... The world vanished as you leave...

其实

其实, 能不能也有个人, 能心疼我。。。