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Watz the feeling of disappointment? Watz the feeling of hiding truths? Watz the feeling of changes?

2011 is definitely not a smooth n fruity year, in terms of positive results, somehow it's definitely a best year for me to adapt to failure, different obstacles I faced tis year, one over another, nvr been slping tight ever since the beginning of the year, never... Mayb these obstacles causes me to chg, into sum1 whom me myself not familiar wit, even will got depressed y I do such things, where's my disciplines? I'm so so so tired, tot of giving up everything, but I cant imagine my life in the future if I gav up all now.

Needing sum1 to share probs, but u're alwayz not around, I really cant stand it recently to be frank, I juz feel like I wanna giv up, dunno how to express tis feeling, but I really dun wan to continue like tis, I'm tired, of worrying, guessing n disappointing. Mayb, we need some times to be calm, tatz really a need for me now, at least I can stop tis issue going for the moment, I've too many stuffs waiting for me to solve now, I need to move on, I cant juz got emo when read something I shouldnt be reading. Mayb u feel safe wit wat I'm now not, but I'm not. I dunno wat to say but, yea U chged alot, I cant adapt...

Sorry Mum, for hidings frm u again, it was the 2nd time I'm not telling u watz actually going on, I feel safer n more calm in tat way, coz I noe u'll be nagging n asking me watz the way to solve n bla bla bla bla bla when I tell u watz happening, I noe u care, but u should noe my well, I hate it when ppl ask me bout probs n ways to solve when me myself still figuring the way to solve, I dunno how to answer ok? N u'll keep asking n asking n asking, u're juz gonna push me towards the edge by doing tat, so I'm sorry for doing tat again.........

It's alwayz good to be driven around when I'm not in good mood n I've the time. I really afraid to be in da room alone facing the walls when I've prob, I dunno wat can I do, I need fresh air, I need listener. Thx for the ride tis morning guyz, it's actually keep me away frm problems for a moment, the beauty of nature is really awesome. Thanks.

Emo?

Things chg... Perhaps? No, it's absolutely... We r no longer the same aren't we? Where is the gal I knew last time which will rejects all outing juz to see me when I arrived? Where is the gal I knew last time which still be talking non stop even she's slpy? Yea,no win-win situation, but at least, let me feel tat u still appreciates moments wit me, Cant u? I aint important anymore, No? Ever since the week b4 u starts ur study life, situation ad been tis worst, I understand there is ntg more important den studies n future, coz I feel the same 2, so I tot by helping u finish ur notes earlier, we might can spend sometimes 2gether, but? U rather stick to ur sms n ur fb rather den talking to me, u didnt even realised I got fed up n go away. I seriously FUCKING hate tat tone now, coz I've been listening to it ever since I stepped into ur hse. I've purposely came n stayed late juz to see u more, n how much times we actually spent 2gether? It's juz like the previous weeks. Where r the promises? Where are u? Where are u when I needed u most my dear? Why I need to rely on others things to release stress n tension even tat u r juz around? Sorry tat I lied, I'm not ok at all. I juz cant spill out anything when u asked. I bet by the time u saw tis, it must already be several dayz or even weeks after it being posted. I cant stand the feeling of sharing, I'm sorry... I do not even noe who am I now... I think I'll not go n find u on purpose in a period, I dun like the disappointment.

Nothing

Sometimes... Nothing doesn't really mean nothing for me, it's actually means I do not noe wat else I wanna say, so if u asked me WHY afterwards, I'll juz repeating using the same word... Nothing.

我没有在生气, 因为我根本没有生气的理由,

我只是觉得 "啊？怎么又要走啦? 这星期第几次了?(无言)。。。"

其实我只是在想，能再陪我一会吗? 我又心烦了。。。

配角

曾经是那好不起眼的小伙子，

曾经连说话的对象都没有，

曾经没有目标的生命，

曾经面对多少排挤，

曾经被人放弃，

曾经被人嫌弃，

没有朋友，

没有目标，

没有希望，

是你，是你点燃了这小伙子的生命，你尽能力帮助他，你从烂泥巴里把他拉了上来，也不只是否有意地安排他坐在你面前，我们之前从没碰面，但你就是能让我那么地尊敬，你总会把我叫到办公室开导我，我真的真的真的真的很谢谢你对我的栽培， 没有你根本不会有今天的我， 你教会我许多人生的道理，所以说我掉班，其实是上天刻意的安排，好让我遇上了你，上天真的很眷顾这小子，总是让他遇上对的人，要不他早就烂得彻底，烂得无可救药了... 谢谢你潘老师，是你改变我的人生，让我从新演义我人生的舞台。

配角,也会有当上主角的一天...

我深信,

因为我曾经就是个好不起眼的配角...