Study Break~

Currently having study break and juz finished part of my studies for Engineering Material, Spend more den 2 weeks on studies but I still feel empty, probably due to slacking too much during teaching weeks, I alwayz swear I will behave better after each and every sem right b4 the new sems, I believe I had chg but not tat much, I'm still late to class alwayz due to overslept but I'd try my best not to slp in da class... I nvr have much confidence for tis finals, but I'd try my best to study n plan to get better results, I'll be doing revision on tutorials n past year wit my frenz if possible, coz I'm those student tat need spoon feeding frm others ppl in order to study better, I can nvr do things alone, I really hpe my study plan works tis times, for the sake of better future.

I alwayz have unstable mood during study week, it really cost me loads of willpower in order to keep myself in tis path; obstacles and etc is creating a huge friction force stopping me for going forward. My sis juz gt all her certs and results after graduating, graduates wit first class honors and being in the dean list for 3 times and president list for 3 times as well, I'm jealous of her, jealous her for her perseverance, I wish I hav tat level of perseverance tat can stop me frm being distracted during studies. I wish I can be as good as her.

Whatz happening?

I'm having insomnia lately, real serious one though, cant be asleep till the clock strike 3/4am although I'm ad on the bed since 12, really cant get myself calm n slp, any cure for it? I cant stand it anymore, will still get insomnia no matter I had or without afternoon nap... Sighs I wan to slp early arrrr....

Getting Older n Older

Started to feel tatI'm getting older n older day by day, not as energetic as I do last time, cannot stay up all nite to study ad, for sure will fall asleep, den will hav random pain around my body after doing sports or exercise, I really should start taking care of my beloved body ad, since I'm juz 20y/o. Wonder if I dun do so, wat will happen to me at the age of 40~ Hmm~ xD

Is starting to miss Mr. William Ngo ad, oi dude, get bak here asap! L O L n do rmb our souvenirs... xD

Nostalgia

Started to miss every single little things in the past recently, missing those to leave their footsteps in my life, no matter it's deep or they juz passes by, as I alwayz told, the best things about my brain is I can rmb most of the ppls in my life, not all but as long as the person is easy to rmb, I shall rmb him/her, I might not rmb her name but I'll rmb her face, or mayb I'll rmb both of it, for example I still rmb the face of the galz tat sit right nxt to me when I'm in kindergarten, I still rmb the faces of most of my kindergarten mates n my old skol mates, even those tat I do not noe them, they might hav some characteristic tat mke me rmb, I think tis is all bcoz I'm a typical scorpio, the most ingat dendam one hahaha~ so better dun threaten me, or else~ xD

I started to miss those who used to be very close to me but we can hardly meet now, those who I used to play wit when i'm younger, my neighbors. There r few of them in my mind now, the one tat lives beside my grandma hse who I used to play wit every wednesday when I follow my dad to my grandma hse after skol when I'm in primary lvl, we knew each others when we r very young, but after I moved we can oni meet n play once a week. Then will be the 3 besties living at the same building as me, I still rmb each n every morning during skol holidayz, all of us will woke up early in da morning n quickly gathered up at a fren hse, his name is Hong, we spend most of our times in his hse until his parents came bak at 5 if i'm not mistaken, we play ps1, n doing alot alot of crazy things there, we had lunch 2gether, n every evening we used to cycle around the neighborhood or swim 2gether, those r the crazy times tat I miss, those r the person who I miss, my childhood frens, those smiles on their face, those laughter we had, those precious moment, those r my history, my chronology, I really hpe I can rmb every single of u till the end of my life.

I'm once alone without frenz, but I hav bunch of buddies right now, especially my 2ndary buddies, n of coz my uni buddies right nw, u guyz r those who I cant afford to lost besides my family, hpes our frenship will last for eternity... Friends Forever Dudes, frenz foreverrrrr.....

The 101th post of mine...

After so so long, finally I've completed 100 posts,n tis will b the 101th... Feel quite down recently, I nvr wan to rmb all tis, but I cant, whenever I feel like giving u up, there will be something happen to soften my hearts, I really do tried to forget, tried my very best, but u will still eventually appear in my mind... I'm tired of these, plz leave me alone, for now n ever...

N after so long, I finally realised wat r u thinking actually, u nvr wan to lose me, as fren, as a backup or watever, coz u noe whenever u hav prob wit him, n u tell me, I'll sure be there to comfort u n listen to u, u nvr wan to lose tis "Someone" whom u can remain him by ur side n will for sure appear when u need him, but I'm so naive, to believe those r actually chances, n waiting blindly. Whenever u do not need tis guy, u will nvr even bother to reply him. I now understand wat am I for u, a good listener perhaps...

Sports any1? =)

It's friday~ n yet I'm still studying coz I hav a test tmr, nt well prepared yet hence going to burn midnight oil 2nite... Argh it's finally weekends, n tis week I dun feel like going any where, I juz hpe to finish the test, come home n rest, coz I'll not hav any time to rest starts frm nxt week, assignments n reports ARGH~ But if u guyz wanna play sports, do ask me =) I wanna go out n hav come fresh air instead of sitting in front of my comp n DotA... Hpe to go to a big field n start kicking ball, I wanna learn hw to play football well, so any football tis week? L O L or mayb futsal? Juz wanna hav some kicking fun~ Havent recover frm World fever yet lolz~ Or or or mayb swimming? I miss swimming pool alot! T_T I used to swim a lot last time, but I think it has been 2-3 months since my last visit to swimming pool... Leo, wait me, I will sure go swim wit u b4 finals.. xD

爱上. 一个人

不知从何开始，我开始喜欢上一个人的生活，一个人吃饭也无所谓；爱上在无人的夜里，坐在角落静静地听着那无比的宁静；更爱上了一个人驾车，有时为了不那么快到家，还故意绕路走，享受那无人的时光与窗外的景色，总觉得无人的时候，什么都显得悠闲自在，没有强颜欢笑的必要。

那朋友不重要？刚好相反，我的人生并不能没有朋友，只是偶尔想一个人静一静。 还记得我小学让人排斥的时候，只因不知为了什么得罪了班上的大红人，可能你会说小朋友嘛，玩玩罢了，但我就酱被排斥了整整４年，我的小学生涯就是酱过的, 一个人到食堂，一个人闲逛，他们心情好麻就一起玩"追追"，不好时就一声满人了打发你走，就是因为小学的生活让我十分珍惜过后我遇到的好朋友。

人麻不如意事十之八九，但我还是选择不提起小学的事，就让它沉睡在记忆里，只是有时让它出来透透气，放放松。 =）

发牢骚.完毕...