The Reason

Mayb u guyz didn't noe tat, U guyz r the reason y I'm still in tis path... I'm enjoy in the war wit u guyz, although I noe I might need to be alone sometimes, but whenever I'm wit u guyz, I feel safe, I wanna fight 2gether wit u all, I dun wanna quit, We gonna win tis war 2gether. Juz 2 more years, or mayb another extra sem for me, but we gonna mke it and win it beautifully... Strive for it mates!!! I nvr gonna stay until tdy without u all... To All of u, my precious war-mate, Thanks...

Changing frm time to time

Been trying so hard, to try to know or understand every single things tat I've chance to learn, trying hard to be knowledgeable, and when time pass, I juz realise I dun not hav so much time for me to involve in so many stuffs, 24 hrs a day is not enuf, I wish I can learn tis, I wish I can master tat, I wish I can hav tis,I wish I can earn tat, so many needs and so many greeds. Trying my best, to be a perfect 1 perhaps, to ensure tat there will be no regret when u choose me and of coz for making u regret for not choosing me =P I wish I can learn more, I wish I can see more, I wish I'll hav a wider vision in the coming times, I'll try my best, to cr8 a better life, and a better future.

Glad to hav u guyz as war-mate, striving for a better future 2gether. I noe tat I'm far away behind u guyz now, but juz watch, imma catch up wit ur footsteps soon, coz I'm ME. *winks

Rmb the deal yoong yang, 5 digits... =D

The Feelings

It feels kinda weird, it's like I'm hving all the things I need, but I still dun feel happy, I tried to focus but was distracted. It's really a joke, when u find out that things tat u pursue for actually changes 180 degree in a blink of eyes. His advices is true, I shall giv up all and continue my journey, there would be something better in front... Perhaps. But memories is something I couldn't erase, I wish tat sum1 juz hit my head hardly wit a baseball bat and I shall wke without those memories lies in my head. Those happiness seems so unreal, it's like grabbing a snow crystal in ur hand, u can grab it tightly and hav it at tis moment, but it will juz melt and flow away at the nxt moment.

Nvr ever tot of playing wit the fire, it's excited but when u got burned, it hurts, and it really tkes times to recover... =)

2011 Y2 S3, the worst and most suffering year ever since I was born, plz juz come and go I beg, I cant stand ur game anymore Mr Fate.

I do... I do...

I love it when u behave like a pampered child

I love it when u hug my arm and lie on my shoulder

I love it when I hug u from the back

I love it when u say u wanna accompany me badly

有一种思念，是不常见，

却总会在某些时刻突然想起，

想念了却又要埋于心底，

就因我不该再让你知道，

我其实也会想起...

Playful? Or Loyal?

We're like the devil to each other, dragging each other to hell...

只有你能给予我这样的激情，我开始怀疑我到底想要的是什么...

让我改变想法迁就你, 还是让你改变玩法迁就我?

是我改变了你，还是你改变了我? 激情与忠实，该何以取舍?

Here Comes Another Wave

At tis silent nite after a huge quarrel between my younger sis n the parents, I finally can calm myself down n start thinking wat should I do. Listening to some musics now, wondering y I hav such a sister, never admit is her fault, nvr admit she is weak? I aso hav my problems where I need to solve, I dare to say the stress I facing is millions or zillions greater den hers, she juz dun realise how lucky she is to be pampered by the parents ever since she was born, I do not hav so much supports like u did when I face probs, I do jealous of u sometimes. Dear sis, if u were happen to read tis, I juz wanna say tat u r juz in ur secondary skol, if u cant even manage to control the stress and ur emotional, wat will happen when u reach Uni and when u step out to tis society? U tot Papa mama jie jie or me will alwayz be there when u face prob? How much can we actually help if u dun even learn to be independent? U shouldn't blame any1 when u face prob in ur own studies, u say tatz suffering, no way to solve, den wat should I do when I screwed up my results in uni now? Wat should I do when I failed? Suicide? Who to blame? Ourselves my sis, no1 should pay responsible on our own mistake, even now I'm facing a huge prob in my studies, but did I cried and yell like a maniac juz like wat u did previous days? Ur obstacles now will oni slow down ur studies, but mistakes tat ur bro made will affect his life, but did I gav up on trying? Learn my sis, learn, learn to solve prob on ur own, crying isn't helping anything u noe? But crying is definitely a good way to express ur emotion, but keep tat to urself, u dun need to cry in front of any1 or yell like a mad1. Tatz all I wanna say, u see it wit ur own eyes, how ur bro gain things tat he wan with his effort, how he survive through his spm wit serious sickness, clear ur mind and accept the facts now, to grow or not to grow, depends on ur own...

I wonder Y probs coming to me at tis time and wave by wave, for sure I'll collapse if another prob come to me again at tis moment, I feel so helpless yet I noe tatz my own mistake, if I didnt mke all these mistakes then probs will not happen now... I juz hope wat I doing now shown my sincerity in helping myself... Plz dun let me collapse, plz giv me strength through tis obstacles... Godbless... ='(

A story of the Moon

When we 1st met, I nvr tot it'll be such a long story, such a long chapter I had in my own life story, it's such a long journey, lotsa things happened in between, wat fate had brought us, I nvr ever think tat we'll be in such a complicated situation, but somehow tis chapter has come to an end, we can never continue the story, because I noe it clearly, Impossible is the word.

Thx for bringing me happiness, be right there when I needed u most, gave me a tight hug when I'm strength-less, u r the one tat will alwayz be there comforting me when I'm not feeling alright, u r there accompany me to pass through the most down period where tons of probs come to me last few weeks... I really enjoyed tis period wit u, I'm really caring n liking u wit the sincere heart, at least I noe it's so so beautiful to hav a date wit the moon, but I'm sorry again I hav to leave, we r not doing it right, I cant get through my own boundary, I still cant accept u...

U said u hate tis song when I played it, but it's how I feel alwayz...

And I'm so sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by

For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when I fled the scene
Sorry love, for wasting your time

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true but sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

An apology now after all of this time
Won't make any difference tonight
But I'm hoping "im sorry" will open your mind
To love love love love in your life

Do tke good care of urself, nvr let those who love u worry bout u, u r such a big kid who need guidance... Pleaseeeeeee, rmb wat I said even u dun like it and Take GOOD Care...