Study Break~

Currently having study break and juz finished part of my studies for Engineering Material, Spend more den 2 weeks on studies but I still feel empty, probably due to slacking too much during teaching weeks, I alwayz swear I will behave better after each and every sem right b4 the new sems, I believe I had chg but not tat much, I'm still late to class alwayz due to overslept but I'd try my best not to slp in da class... I nvr have much confidence for tis finals, but I'd try my best to study n plan to get better results, I'll be doing revision on tutorials n past year wit my frenz if possible, coz I'm those student tat need spoon feeding frm others ppl in order to study better, I can nvr do things alone, I really hpe my study plan works tis times, for the sake of better future.

I alwayz have unstable mood during study week, it really cost me loads of willpower in order to keep myself in tis path; obstacles and etc is creating a huge friction force stopping me for going forward. My sis juz gt all her certs and results after graduating, graduates wit first class honors and being in the dean list for 3 times and president list for 3 times as well, I'm jealous of her, jealous her for her perseverance, I wish I hav tat level of perseverance tat can stop me frm being distracted during studies. I wish I can be as good as her.

Whatz happening?

I'm having insomnia lately, real serious one though, cant be asleep till the clock strike 3/4am although I'm ad on the bed since 12, really cant get myself calm n slp, any cure for it? I cant stand it anymore, will still get insomnia no matter I had or without afternoon nap... Sighs I wan to slp early arrrr....

Getting Older n Older

Started to feel tatI'm getting older n older day by day, not as energetic as I do last time, cannot stay up all nite to study ad, for sure will fall asleep, den will hav random pain around my body after doing sports or exercise, I really should start taking care of my beloved body ad, since I'm juz 20y/o. Wonder if I dun do so, wat will happen to me at the age of 40~ Hmm~ xD

Is starting to miss Mr. William Ngo ad, oi dude, get bak here asap! L O L n do rmb our souvenirs... xD

Nostalgia

Started to miss every single little things in the past recently, missing those to leave their footsteps in my life, no matter it's deep or they juz passes by, as I alwayz told, the best things about my brain is I can rmb most of the ppls in my life, not all but as long as the person is easy to rmb, I shall rmb him/her, I might not rmb her name but I'll rmb her face, or mayb I'll rmb both of it, for example I still rmb the face of the galz tat sit right nxt to me when I'm in kindergarten, I still rmb the faces of most of my kindergarten mates n my old skol mates, even those tat I do not noe them, they might hav some characteristic tat mke me rmb, I think tis is all bcoz I'm a typical scorpio, the most ingat dendam one hahaha~ so better dun threaten me, or else~ xD

I started to miss those who used to be very close to me but we can hardly meet now, those who I used to play wit when i'm younger, my neighbors. There r few of them in my mind now, the one tat lives beside my grandma hse who I used to play wit every wednesday when I follow my dad to my grandma hse after skol when I'm in primary lvl, we knew each others when we r very young, but after I moved we can oni meet n play once a week. Then will be the 3 besties living at the same building as me, I still rmb each n every morning during skol holidayz, all of us will woke up early in da morning n quickly gathered up at a fren hse, his name is Hong, we spend most of our times in his hse until his parents came bak at 5 if i'm not mistaken, we play ps1, n doing alot alot of crazy things there, we had lunch 2gether, n every evening we used to cycle around the neighborhood or swim 2gether, those r the crazy times tat I miss, those r the person who I miss, my childhood frens, those smiles on their face, those laughter we had, those precious moment, those r my history, my chronology, I really hpe I can rmb every single of u till the end of my life.

I'm once alone without frenz, but I hav bunch of buddies right now, especially my 2ndary buddies, n of coz my uni buddies right nw, u guyz r those who I cant afford to lost besides my family, hpes our frenship will last for eternity... Friends Forever Dudes, frenz foreverrrrr.....

The 101th post of mine...

After so so long, finally I've completed 100 posts,n tis will b the 101th... Feel quite down recently, I nvr wan to rmb all tis, but I cant, whenever I feel like giving u up, there will be something happen to soften my hearts, I really do tried to forget, tried my very best, but u will still eventually appear in my mind... I'm tired of these, plz leave me alone, for now n ever...

N after so long, I finally realised wat r u thinking actually, u nvr wan to lose me, as fren, as a backup or watever, coz u noe whenever u hav prob wit him, n u tell me, I'll sure be there to comfort u n listen to u, u nvr wan to lose tis "Someone" whom u can remain him by ur side n will for sure appear when u need him, but I'm so naive, to believe those r actually chances, n waiting blindly. Whenever u do not need tis guy, u will nvr even bother to reply him. I now understand wat am I for u, a good listener perhaps...

Sports any1? =)

It's friday~ n yet I'm still studying coz I hav a test tmr, nt well prepared yet hence going to burn midnight oil 2nite... Argh it's finally weekends, n tis week I dun feel like going any where, I juz hpe to finish the test, come home n rest, coz I'll not hav any time to rest starts frm nxt week, assignments n reports ARGH~ But if u guyz wanna play sports, do ask me =) I wanna go out n hav come fresh air instead of sitting in front of my comp n DotA... Hpe to go to a big field n start kicking ball, I wanna learn hw to play football well, so any football tis week? L O L or mayb futsal? Juz wanna hav some kicking fun~ Havent recover frm World fever yet lolz~ Or or or mayb swimming? I miss swimming pool alot! T_T I used to swim a lot last time, but I think it has been 2-3 months since my last visit to swimming pool... Leo, wait me, I will sure go swim wit u b4 finals.. xD

爱上. 一个人

不知从何开始，我开始喜欢上一个人的生活，一个人吃饭也无所谓；爱上在无人的夜里，坐在角落静静地听着那无比的宁静；更爱上了一个人驾车，有时为了不那么快到家，还故意绕路走，享受那无人的时光与窗外的景色，总觉得无人的时候，什么都显得悠闲自在，没有强颜欢笑的必要。

那朋友不重要？刚好相反，我的人生并不能没有朋友，只是偶尔想一个人静一静。 还记得我小学让人排斥的时候，只因不知为了什么得罪了班上的大红人，可能你会说小朋友嘛，玩玩罢了，但我就酱被排斥了整整４年，我的小学生涯就是酱过的, 一个人到食堂，一个人闲逛，他们心情好麻就一起玩"追追"，不好时就一声满人了打发你走，就是因为小学的生活让我十分珍惜过后我遇到的好朋友。

人麻不如意事十之八九，但我还是选择不提起小学的事，就让它沉睡在记忆里，只是有时让它出来透透气，放放松。 =）

发牢骚.完毕...

Shall We State the Case

Hav been watching tis drama since it released, n juz reach home tdy morning so juz manage to watch the ending of the drama juz now... Find some interesting dialouge in there which I found it to be perfectly match wit wat I did last time... At here, a sincere sry for U, u might nt b reading it, u nt even understand wat it mean, but still I'm sorry... This phrase was during the convo between Kings n Gordon...

错在高估了自己，以为我绝对可以找到更好的，以为永远那么顺景，要那样有那样，结果什么都得不到， 连自己嫌弃人，还不经意地伤到了人都不知道。。。

Actually I'll repeat the same mistake no matter in which aspect, I'll alwayz be overestimating myself when I'm doing something but at last I will oni leave it undone or I'll be struggling in order to complete it.

It's Thursday!

Ahhh~ Finally another 8am-6/7pm week has ended, feel so so so tired right now, since last week I was having class 8am in da morning everyday day n ending at 6 or 7 pm due to experiments, really feel so exhausted, although I skipped the 2 hrs class yesterday yet I still feel damn damn tired now... Luckily it's all ended now, tmr is friday, which meanz I can slp till whenever I wan ^^ Planned to go for the 1 hr class, see how la, depends on my mood hahaha~ better sit at home n finish the lab reports...

Tdy is such a boring day at uni, unstoppable lecture, tutorial, lecture, tutorial, I oni hav 2 hrs break for classes frm 8-7... N the most unlucky thing is, tat aunty in pink frm DSA stop us frm playing ping pong -.- said wat the DSA is using it, after we stop plying, she juz sit bak to her place n do ntg wit the ping pong table, feel so like cekik-ing her at tat time, oi aunty ping pong oni leh, will die arr? u tell me la, wat u going to do wit tat ping pong table? Zzz...

Seriously I really enjoy every fluid class, hong tat n YY juz cant stop mking jokes lolz, each n every time I sit besides them, unless I'm slping, if not the oni thing I will b doing is laughing... Going to YY hse tmr, lami + tong yuen *winks~ Hahahaha~ Ciaoz, off to bed now, yawning...

Morning~

I should be in my unit operation class instead of blogging here, but unfortunately, my mum forgot to wke me up AGAIN tdy, yea I do rely on my mum to wkes me up every times I need to wke up early in da morning, I do hav alarm clock, I do set alarm, juz tat if it's too early, I'm not able to hear the ringing alarm, tatz y I alwayz need my mum to wke me up, there is an alternating way =) Sum1 willing to morning call me every morning? I will be VERY glad to hav such a kind hearted n caring fren like tis hahaha...

I promised ah liam I will update him things happened here through blog, but it juz seems like impossible, I juz dun hav the writting mood as before, but there is something he might wan to noe lolz... Every since he left, I think I oni see JV, Steve, Ken n Wayne for 1 time, and the rest for 0 time, William arr, I think u r the purpose y every1 r gathering every weekends last time hahaha~ Sadly, I do see hw frenship chg, or more specificaly, hw a person chg, there is tis person who used to call me no matter wat, n dunno since when, I will oni receive his call when he need helps... While getting further wit a bunch of frenz, I'm getting closer n closer to another bunch of frenz haha~

OK! Ping Pong ltr! Off to uni now...

Good bye for 3 months...

Quite a while didnt update the blog, do not hav the mood to do so... Hav many posts accumulated in my brain, most of them were written during my finals, emo maaa haha~ I'll try to rmb bak n try to post it here, all the footsteps in my live...

Well, last saturday, william were leaving to US for erm~ x tau how to call tat, a vacation or erm~ working trip? Dunno la... Janji go US... Every time a fren of mine leaving, no matter how long, how far, for sure I'll feel a bit sad, ini lagi x payah say la, he is definitely more den a fren to me, I dunno how he think, but I'm already consider him as my brother... He is one of the ppl, I cannot affort to lost, no matter wat... Watz so good bout him leave to nxt post bah, upload the best things of my frenz at once...

William... Tke good care of urself there... Short update oni, will update more since I promised =) Good bye~

I'm almost there...

Every single sem, there will b tis period in hell for all students, study week until the end of finals, define period in hell? Mke it simple, outing-less, enjoy-less, game-less, relax-less, eat-less, n most important... Sleepless! So each n every time when my frenz meet me during finals, their comments will be "Y u look so pale?" "Y u so look chan?" "U r getting thinner" N bla bla bla which all related to pale+no energy+ eye bag+ dark eye circle... N the most terrible thing is I still got 3 years left n by multiply by 3 sem each year I will undergo tis period of hell for 9 more times! It's now almost the end for the current period of hell, juz one last paper den I can slp eat play like nobody business but tis oni last for 2 weeks tis time, damn UTAR! 2 weeks of semester break is not enuf... T_T

How bout the exam tis time? Dun ask me, I'll b damn grateful if I were to pass those paper which I screwed. I'm undergoing a stressful n blur moment juz right b4 tis finals, I told sum1 wat I actually thinking n she gav her advice, which I think is quite true, so at tat moment, I juz feel wanna skip tis finals n quit tis course, but now... I juz hpe tat I pass the finals n continue my journey, one of the reason is for the money n time spent, another reason is, after chemistry paper, I notice tat I really got tat heart wanna b an engineer, so no matter how hard, I'll try to survive, coz I think if I dare to dream big, I'll dare to keep myself wit tis one way ticket, there is no turning bak, n there r more n more challenge in front... Persevere...

But still, I think the edu-system nowadayz r so dead, especially in M'sia, where since primary, we r oni taught on how to score in exams, examination's results bcome the most important thing in skol, so usually students will oni memories solution but not understand the solution in order for them to get good results. So it is y I'm so suffer when in UNI, since my previous study style was mostly on memorising... So I'm now trying my best to study while understanding wat I read...

Simple Update

How long has it been since my last update? I dun even rmb, juz barely rmb it is at the beginning of this semester and b4 CNY ^^... N it's almost the end of sem now, week 14... Gonna hav my finals soon n of coz, sem-ly trip after finals... HAHA~ So guyz, rmb to plan for it... xD As for my studies, argh~ dun remind me of studies, gonna siao soon... Juz tke a nap juz now, at around 10pm( Suppose to slp earlier but YY seems to miss me n dun let me slp), woke up at 1am++, do some hse chores and on9... Soons will get bak n face those holy crap notes n books... Hell, I really dislike exam so so so so much, but I do loveee those breaks we had after finals, ntg can b more relax den slping late, wking late, gaming all nite, eat slp play n there goes the repetition hahaha~ n of coz, our sem-ly trips, let break the photos record we had last time xD N Jv, wayne, axt, william, Ken, Steven, Liew... We should have a wonderful trip too... hehahaha Till den... cya~ xD

Clean up~

After being asked by my mum for 3 weeks to clean up my room, I finally did it tis afternoon... Used x sampai 1 hour laaaaa, so u can imagine how clean was my room right? =) Thrown those old newspaper around my side table, those rubbish in my cupboard n those old notes n tutorial on my study table, then wipe awayz those dust... So now my room is super neat n clean~ Now tinggal the fragrant wit Aqua aroma, den my room is ready for the CNY visits... LOLz

Wondeful day~

Yawn~ Juz woke up frm nap n took my shower, den feel like checking sum1's blog n accidentally found my pics in it, ish ish ish~ Luckily I still look cute when I slp xD Right?

Well as I said b4 2010 will definitely b a better year for me n I'm going to prove it, last week was the most terrible week in january where all the super troublesome things happened 2gether, but till tdy, I can say 90% of it already solved, now left one, which is not under my control, so.... Juz let it b~ let it b~ I got bak wat I wan, N removed wat I dun wan~ =) Those who close wit me noe wat I mean Removed~

Most of the probs r solved now, n there goes my unlucky week... Yet to remind myself 明天不一定会更好 但更好的明天一定会来 (Tomorrow Might Not Be A Better Day But For Sure There Will Be A Better Tomorrow) ... =)

Giv me a break plz...

Unwanted, Unhappy, Unlucky things are happening on me like a wave tis week... 一波未平一波又起... Causing me insomnia last nite, cuz I cant stop my brain frm thinking... Really hpe all tis can end as soon as possible... 4 dayz of holidayz doesn't seems to b an enjoyment for me... N some ppl juz cant think in the others position, when I said I DUN WAN! I hav my own reason, dun keep forcing me or making jk of it ok? U juz making urself looks like a retard in front of me, if I have the ability to do so, y not? Can plz stop talking n think in my position?

Deleted...

Deleted All Your Sms frm my phone, Deleted All Your Photos frm my comp, Deleted All Your Images frm my mind, Deleted All The Memories You gave frm my brain... Doing all this juz to ensure tat I'm slowly taking You out from my life as SOMEONE...

Many things happened tis week, n causing me to feel depressed for one whole week n I'm still feeling tat way since something bad juz happened tis morning b4 I went to uni...

Yet it's juz the 2nd week of uni life, n nearly the end of the 1st month in 2010, for me my 2010 hav a very good beginning, n ppl alwayz says tat having a good beginning is succeeded for half of the task... So hope tat I'll hav bak my luck n confidence which I lost it since 2008...

One of the luckiest thing I have tis year is having some ppl treating me real gooood, appreciate it... 谢谢你对我的好 但请原谅我无以回报 ...

The untold phrase

谢谢你对我的好 但请原谅我无以回报...

Happy Birthday Javan Cheong, Stanley Yap, Mei san

As in the title... Happy Birthday In Advance + Happy Birthday + Happy Belated Birthday To Javan Cheong, Stanley Yap n Mei san~ As for JV, simple celebration... =) Stanley? If cant mke it den sorry la, i gt ur heart one, really.... not for galz oni =) Den Mei san~ U didnt come bak~ xD I bet while u read tis u will say :"Wat a lame excuse!" but yeah, tak kan we fly to kampar d mer xD So happy 20th birthday la to 3 of u la... Hpe u guyz have a wonderful 20th~

Juz randomly reading others blogs couple minutes ago, n found tis in my sis's fren's blog which I feel the description is nice... N wanted to share it...暧昧~

暧昧是，比好朋友再亲一点，但比恋人远一点。

暧昧是，你会常常在QQ等他在线。当他几天没有在线，你就会有些担心。

暧昧是，你会不时去他的BLOG看看有没有更新；而且你会留意字里行间，他对你有没有什么暗示。

暧昧是，有感觉，然而，这种感觉不足以叫你们切切实实地发展一段正式的关系。

暧昧是，明白人生有太多的无奈，现实有太多的限制。你知道没有可能，但又舍不得放手。

暧昧是，有进一步的冲动，却没有进一步的勇气。

暧昧是，他不是你的情人，但似乎他比你的情人更关心你和了解你。

暧昧是，你会编一条围巾给他，但大家从没有开始过。

暧昧是，虽然他不是你的情人，但他却会对你说：你对我是十分重要的。

暧昧是，你感冒时有一个会在晚上打电话来，特意提醒你服药，叫你盖好被子早点睡的普通朋友。

暧昧是，当你遇到问题解决不了的时候，你找不到你的男/女朋友，你第一个便会想起他。

暧昧是，每当他提及他的另一半时，你会万箭穿心。

暧昧是，为了逃避背叛的罪恶感。

暧昧是，甜津津又同时酸溜溜的。往往从未开始，已叫人不安，患得患失。

暧昧是，别人以为你们在搞地下情时，你会沾沾自喜。

暧昧是，别人问你们是否恋爱中，你张口结舌。

暧昧是，常常挣扎表不表白。你怕表白之后，你既得不到一个情人，却又失去了一个知心好友。

暧昧是，见到他，你会心跳。见不到他时，你会挂念他。

暧昧是，两个人都会互相猜想。他是不是已经暗示了什么？我是不是自作多情？

暧昧是，每天大家都会聊QQ，会互传手机短讯，无规律地偶然约会。

暧昧是，除了情人节之外，其它的节日，大家都交换礼物。

暧昧是，你很想多走一步，但又怕会吓怕了他。你会很小心流露自己的感情。

暧昧是，两个人没有承诺过什么。但虽然如此，你愿意付出的，比有承诺的情侣更多。没有责任，但你却很渴望去承担，不问回报。

暧昧,是一扇门，你可以停留在门外，也可以踏进房子里面。然后你不可以停留在门下面。门–永不是终点站。

我们暧昧，我们却不属于对方。

Melacca Photos

As I said in previous post, I'll post up some photos of melacca, as for the stories of the trip I leave it for our most pro story teller Min Yang , he havent finish all the post yet but the blog entry for day one is done... As for me I will upload some fantastic photo here, n most of the fantastic photo is taken by warren the 9 lau photographer(Self-declared) Lolz~
There r more photo but i cant post all here cuz there are 430 of them (@o@)... Mayb search for my facebook for more photo lolz~

YY n Wai Ming b4 departure


Me n MY


Sexy? LOL~


Wei kian makan-ing pau


Stanley


Wai ming


Frm left Me, Carmen, Tok, Stanley, waiming, KF, MY, YY, Warren


Group photo 2


Oppss? Photoshopped? Melacca Post Card? LOL


Group photo 3


Having Lunch wit sze lee, the gal frm left...


Did waiming's expression tell u how cold is melacca? ROFL



Utar HaoPoh


Utar HaoLou


KK:I'm so Cute~
Stanley:I'm so Cool~


They named it Tunku Tan~


YY is in luv~


We call him stanley the climber... y? 1st climb


2nd climb~


There he climbs again~


N Again~


N again again~ LOL


Self-Declared as Tan Kim Hock(Owner of the shop)


Cute? LOL


I personally love tis one.. Attack!!!


The sweet couple~ Tok n Carmen


Err Wat band wit 4 male n 1 female?


Tis is Beyond~ Hahaha~

Can guess which is me?










Photo taken by warren... Emo punya pose


Random pose 1


Change


N change again... Sun set jor lu~


Sweet? sweetest pics of the trip... Nt grab frm web one arr, below is the unedited version


The unedited version


N guess we no need to explain for tis?
Best pics of Me n YY haha~

Awesome Melacca trip

Juz came bak frm melacca yest nite, an awesome trip but yet tiring... Who to blame? KF I think u sould noe~ xD HOT SUN~ WALK WALK WALK~ SWEATING~ haha~

More talk more bout it when those pics r uploaded by my frenz, tons of them lolz, it's more like a photoshooting trip den a makan makan trip...

2010

Lolz My blog can b consider as dead now since I didnt update it ever since the beginning of my sem break which is erm around 4 months ago? Lolz~ So as a big welcome for 2010 here will b my 1st post for 2010...

Wat I did in the past 4 months of sem break? Hmm~ 1st week of it, as usual a trip wit my uni gang, went to hock heng's hse in penang, it's a food trip actually coz we r having 5 meals per day there... Thx man hock heng, mayb tis thx is quite a late one but still, thx for bringing us travel around penang n those nice foods, the seafoods dinner is really nice n nevertheless hock heng's sporting gf, she was so frenly where the 1st day we all hang out it's like she noe all of us for a very long time... Haha~

After the trip den the rest was my daily life la, slp eat play n there goes the cycle over n over again... But for sure I didnt waste my 4 months holidayz juz like tat, I worked ok? Lolz~ last weeks was my most suffering period ever, working frm 6am n reach home at 6pm, cuz I'm working in those 2ndary skol bookshop, n last week the skol reopen, really tiring especially after having a good/tiring trip to semenyih wit my buddies~ The semenyih trip was fun yet unlucky one LOL y I said so? Cuz our initial plan was to hike broga hill, hav dinner n come bak to ampang, unfortunately when we r on the way, it started to rain heavily, n it didnt stop when we reached semenyih so we went n meet up wit william n his gf to hav our dinner 1st, after the dinner we went str8 to william's uni, University Of Nottingham... HOLY The Uni is so so BIG n those facilities r juz too nice, they hav hotel style of cafe there, n their office is juz like a hotel lobby... There r still many facilities there, basketbaall court, futsal one, football, a big lake n my fav a swimming pool @~@, I like the enviroment there, n so do others... After tat we pay out ex tuition teacher a visit since he juz moved to semenyih around 1 year ago, his hse was a nice one, big, n the design n so trendy... I even mke a joke stating tat if my room was as nice as his one, I can even survive without stepping out of the room lolz... His hse was full of entertainment, karaok set, nintendo Wii, n etc etc... We stay there till 2am in da morning since all of us agreed to hike broga again in da morning... Went bak to william's hse for a break n start our journey to broga again... N the 'lucky' us failed again due to the rain~ Argh~ but yet we did hike a bit la, till the hiking path was to slippery to go further... Had our breakfast n come bak to ampang to hav a good rest...

As for photos, will upload after i get it frm the others... =)

N now I'm preparing myself again, going to Sg Long ltr, YY hse xD n departing to melacca tmr... Nxt week will b my new n last sem of the year... Wish me luck den~ =)

Happy 2010 to all my fellow frenz, hpe tat tis year will b a fruitful year for U n Me... =)